This time of year for the rest of my life will be laced with anxiety. Truth is being on bed rest for how long I was when pregnant, leaves you forever altered. You think to much, and are pinned with thoughts of "When the babies come and I can move again I promise to...."Every emotion is not allowed it's full blossom, because the floor could fall from under us at any time. Even now at Christmas I feel a hesitation to fully rejoice. So odd, but I think it's what "luck" feels like, or magically receive a miracle. It's the idea how quickly it was given it can be taken away.
What a lost opportunity to live what few get to live right?! This is why this year I have decided to truly feel " Lucky." Because almost 3 years ago I was lying in a bed praying to make it to Christmas.....and we did! And we followed it by flying right into January!
I never post prego shots of me because there aren't alot of me standing up...so behold the mother load..(people try to tell me I wasn't big...I was biiiggg trust me) Brent called me a "orange on tooth picks," lovely Brent.
4 comments:
you look darling......
XO
Kirsten
I was bigger than that with one. You had four. No way at all you could've thought yourself big.
Autumn, it is a miracle that you had those darling boys... You are a incredible I think it proves official now that I saw that pic. I never quite understood how you fit all them in that tiny body of yours.
You are gorgeous so it didn't matter how big your stomach was! Your boys are adorable.
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